Using makeup

I didn't grow up a makeup user. When I was a kid I didn't really understand it. It wasn't until around my junior year that I really started to get into makeup, and now I can't seem to live without it. I can't believe I used to let myself look like such a disaster the way I did before. i'm not saying I was ugly or anything, but makeup really helps to add some color to an otherwise boring look.

I've always suffered from really dark circles around my eyes. It has nothing to do with a lack of sleep. I've had them since I was a little kid. They're actually incredibly bad and people have pointed them out to me before and told me that I could use some sleep, which as you can imagine is very offensive. I don't understand why people can't just mind their own business. Anyway. Concealer has been a life changer. It's amazing that I can walk around with my dark circles covered up. I can't make them go away completely, but the makeup makes a huge difference. One minute I am a zombie, and the next minute I am not. It's fabulous!

The big issue with makeup is that it's sooo expensive. I would love to try out more products and invest in some different things, but it doesn't seem like that is a possibility without making myself completely poor. So I can't buy myself new makeup, and I can't buy myself any new clothes. What exactly is a girl to do? One of these days I'm going to find a way to get a ton of money. Yes I have a job, but my job only gives me enough so that I get to exist on a day to day basis. Forget buying myself fun stuff. Money is the worst.

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Boring clothes

I am sick of all of the clothes that I own. This is probably the most typical girl problem that anyone in the world could have, but there it is. I have it. Every time I open my closet to pick out something to wear, I honestly want to start vomiting. It might be because I've been wearing the same clothes for several years. I honestly own some things that I owned when I was in high school, and I haven't been in high school since 2006

I wish I could come into a big chunk of money. I would take all of that money and go on a crazy shopping spree. First I would go through all of my drawers and my closet, and I would honestly throw everything out. Well, I would donate it, since most of my clothes are in very good condition. But the point is, I would get rid of everything and start from scratch. The idea of throwing all of my things away and starting from the very beginning and being completely brand new feels like the best idea in the world. Where can I possible get the money to allow me to do something like this?

If I dressed badly enough, I'd love to be on what not to wear just so they could throw all of my clothes away and then I would have 5000 to spend on whatever it is I wanted. With my luck I probably wouldn't be able to find anything that I like, or anything that comes in my size. I am very small, and finding clothing that fits me is pretty much impossible. It's probably why I can still fit in my high school clothes and why my wardrobe ever gets updated. Sigh. I really need money. Someone donate to me please.

Patience

I have no patience when it comes to improving at things. I'm the type of person, where if I am not already good at something, then I find it really hard to find the motivation to do it. This is a sad quality to have, especially when it comes to things that I like to do. If I feel that I am not doing well at something, then I just want to give up.

This has happened with multiple hobbies that I have taken up. I've tried to learn how to play various instruments over the years but I have always given up because I never feel like allowing myself any time to get better at it. If I play for a week and I see no progress I wonder why I have even been wasting my time. I want to hear nothing but amazing music coming from the instrument even if that makes no sense at all.

I took up knitting a few years ago, and even though I did start to learn how to do it, when I went back to school, I didn't have time for it anymore, and then I stopped. Now I have forgotten essentially everything that I had learned and I don't really have any motivation to pick it up again. This means I wasted money on all my supplied. I have a bunch of unused yarn that I never even opened. I get too ambitious when I start something. I end up spending a lot of money on it, and then I give up and it's all a waste of money. I'm not even going to get started on the time I bought a bunch of supplies so that I could make jewelry.